I don't normally link up with Ian on Mondays, although I read frequently...every week he does "Monday Minute" but this week its Monkey minute... One of our fellow blogger friends got some terrible, life changing news recently... Michelle @ Momma Pixie's Dreams' Daughter "Monkey" was diagnosed with cancer...she needs all the support in the world right now...even if you don't know , or have never read her blog, GO. Be her support. Be her friend. Pray pray pray for Monkey...also stop back to Ian's this Wednesday, he's got something awesome up his sleeve! You can go here for my original my favorite things post, and make sure you head over to Ian's...I implore you! :)
1 - How old do you act?
Ha! That's very subjective. And completely depends on the situation. Most of the time people tell me I act older than my age...so much that sometimes my friends call me "mother goose" because I'm always mother goosin'...being the party pooper or the rational person at the party.
2 - As far back as you can remember, what did you want to be when you grew up?
A veterinarian
3 - If you were to write a book based on your life, what would the title be?
Sarah's smile
4 - What's something that you do that's considered "childish" by most?
I don't know....Sometimes I'm known to let out a crazy burp...I watch cartoons all the time (sometimes by my self) I don't know... lol
5 - The last question isn't a question. Write a story of a time of when you or someone you know overcame great adversity.
You know...I know some people who have been through some stuff, and I've been through alot...but none that I can think of as a mom that would be as devastating this. I can't begin to think of a story.
The 'My Favorite Things' Shenanigans are going to be changing just a wee smidgen. I talked last week about MFTM being time consuming, and that's largely in part to to the fact that I like to be all artsy and what not. So for my own convenience and yours if you chose to link up (which would be really cool...I'll give you a cookie.) I'm cutting the list down to 5 from ten. This should make things a little more interesting as well...I'll really have to work hard to narrow MFT down to just 5 per category...cause I have a lot of FT you know!
This week's is My Favorite Places to be:
1. Gram's house
My grandma's house holds practically all of my childhood nostolgia...
well not ALL, but alot. I spent a ton of time there when I was little.
I have that place memorized from front to back...I know the sounds and
smells and where the to find almost anything. I walk in and it's like home.
I'm transported back to years of Chrismases and Thanksgivings. Tennis
games on the Tv...Frank Senatra playing softly in the kitchen at the butt crack
of dawn, my grams house flip flops-a -flippin-and-a-flopping up and down
the hall way (also at the butt crack of dawn). The smell of my grandmas home
made Zuccini bread, and the smell of Bay leaves simmering in my Papa's
delicious spagetti. God bless his amazing soul. Visions of bowls of green grapes
on the counter for me to pick at when I wanted, the times we'd spend at the yacht
club and on my papa's sail boat, The papagayo....and not last...and def. not going to
be least...the Tangerine tree...there will be a post in the near future about the tangerine
tree! The 3 pics....me IN said Tangerine tree, my wonderful grams cooking and lastly
my wonderful grams again, picking black berries in a jump suit. LOL I love her!
2. The Dana Point Harbor
I think of good times, good friends and a peacul place to be when I talk about
the Harbor. Not only do I work there, but I've spent most of my 17-23 year old life there.
Memories galore, all which I love to revisit. Days when I had nothing to worry about.
Work work work all day and play play play all night. Aside from that, its gorgeous. There's
nothing better than suiting up and power walking in the sun, with the briney sea air in your hair.
Or early in the morning, when there's not a soul in sight, and all you hear are the bells dinging
quietly, and the water lapping at the side of the boats. Utter peace.
3.BED
For obvious reasons......
I'm talking about for SLEEP. jeeze. ;)
I really cannot express to you how much I love bed.
I have always been one of those people, who would much rather
spend my mornings in bed with a cuppa joe than up and about all wimbly nimbly
being all cheerful and crap. I love to wallow in my blankets all morning, and it's a
cryin' shame that I don't get the opportunity anymore...but that's ok...bed and I are
likethis...and we'll have our day again!
drooool.
4.Anywhere and everywhere with my other half:
And for a gazillion reasons...just a few being he's my left hand...my partner
in crime...the half that makes his mama whole. My heart, life, and soul. He
breaths life into me with every smile. I would go anywhere with him. And I would
give him big mom kisses the whole way.
5. Church
One of the only places where I feel completely at one.
Totally loved. At peace. Full. And Happy.
I love to chill with my good buddy JC, what can I say.
He's the bomb! Especially recently, I've learned so much,
and each week I go I want more and more.
Hebrews 10:25
Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.
Theres my 5 folks....link up... I'd love to see what your favorite places are.
I woke up late, we have church in like T minus 1 hour I'm frantic and I had this whole post planned out....grrr...I don't wanna post it too late because I dont know what we'll be doing later. Anyways....
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!
This is my beautiful mommy and I
This is my beautiful mommy being a great mommy :)
My beautiful mommy being a GREAT grandma
And this is my beautiful mommy just being beautiful
If it wasnt for my mommy I'd be lost, she taught me everything I know, and most importantly how to be a mommy to my wonderful son!
You ever have those weeks that just feel crazy even though they're really not? It's just that each day is an amplified version of the norm? A little more emotional, a little more hectic, SSDD with just a little change in it? (I'll give you a "hug" if you can figure out or if you know what SSDD or SSSS are) That's kind of how my week was....
Dropping Trevor off on Tues. was straight up brutal... and it seems to keep getting harder...my heart breaks each time...He's been doing so well...his tantrums seem to be getting alot better, and he's been wonderful. Sweet, and cuddly, and just the sweet little baby he always is. we spent most of Tues laying around in bed and cuddling watching movies. When it came time to take him to the ex's he said "No mommy, I don't want to go to daddy's house, I wanna stay witchoo. I promise I'll be a good boy". Oh sweet baby....daddy's house is not a punishment... that was heart wrencher number one... Then dropping him off he cried... and just looked so apprehensive... looking up at his dad like " Are you happy to see me?"....that was heart wrencher number two....I just cried. I don't know how else to cope with it. I know his father loves him... I really do. I just wish he would try to make Trevor's visits more special.
Work was insane. I work at a restaurant if you will, a little place in the DP harbor, a family owned business that's been there for 30 years...this place is like a home to me, the owner like a father. We've always been busy, one of those local places that everyone in the city knows, and will wait the line 50 people deep and 40 mins long just to order food. We get busier and busier as the years go by, and we've been doing things virtually the same way forever...well we've implemented en entirely new system. New registers and operating systems, and new food prep systems. The result? Chaos. The registers not so much. The food is another story. I feel like I ran around in circles the whole week. Being a creature of habit, I do not deal with change well. Needless to say I was excited for the R&R and to have my other half back.
Today has been a wonderfully leisurely morning, I've been blessed with a child who likes to sleep in, we don't normally roll out of bed until 9:30, so that's always nice. We did turkey bacon and eggs, Trev's favorite. I drank my coffee and watched some cheesy Sci-fi movie....and now its catching up on blogs, and my neglected commenting. There won't be much more going on today besides this glorious laziness... I love it so much. If I could just lay in bed all day with my boy I would. I'm looking so forward to the next couple days, and I'm excited that Mother's day is on a Sunday, it'll be cool to see how church is going to be, I can't think of a better day of the week for Mommy's day to be on!
Oh and last but certainly NOT least.... I love each and everyone of you like a fat kid loves cake...and I really love cake. My readers continually make me feel so supported and cared about, Tuesday's post was really hard for me, and as usual I have the wonderful support of you all.. and its SOOOO appreciated! Seriously, you're frappin' awesome! After that post, I'm just trying to move forward...I can't keep revisiting that part of my life...I'm trying to find and heal all affected areas, and look and see what part of my life they have changed. The trust issues are a good one....my need for control and safety is another. My fear of ANY change is another. The fear of having concrete love in my life. I'm terrified of losing things/people. Theres an entire laundry list of things I need to work on...some of which I'll elaborate more on as soon as I grow some balls back after that last post, writing about everything has proven to be really therapeudic for me!
So here's to fixing my disfunctions, and moving forward!!
“The key to change... is to let go of fear.” -Rosanne Cash
“The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes.” -Charles Swindoll
This all started when I rearranged my room....I just HAD to start digging through old things...I found a certain notebook,( I wrote about it here.) In said notebook I kind of rediscovered who I was and how I came to be who I am. I've re-read this note book a couple times before the other day, but maybe I just wasn't ready to let myself deal with some of what I went through, back then. Alot of what happened and what I felt has been locked up in a special hidey place in my head. In a way I "forgot". If you aren't sure where I'm going with this, I'm speaking mostly of growing up with a severely alcoholic father. Alotof him not being there, alot of emotional and mental abuse, never physical. But it was a mind screw none the less. I'm not going to go into ALOT of details. I just can't air the uglys out on my blog TOO much. Know there was alot of alcohol, alot of drugs, alot of screaming, alot of late night waking up.... I grew up way too fast, and in a tiny little way I feel like a little smidge of my child hood was taken away. God bless my mom for holding it all together.
My father is an amazing man. He's funny, and an amazingly talented cook and guitar player...I mean my dad can rip. Not only that but he can catch a fish like no body's business, clean it, and then cook an delicious meal out of it. I LOVE my dad... I do. SOOO very much. And he was ever so kind to bless me with his ginormous feet and chunky toes....thanks dad! I have forgiven him for anything that's happened...I had to. I had no relationship with my dad for a while, and since have been trying to build it again. So far so good. I had to let go I guess. But the hurt was still there. Its there when I get that nagging feeling of mistrust with men. It's there in the pang of sadness in myheart for mysister, because she did not deal with the situation with him as well as it did. But I have to REALLY let go. Deal with the demons once and for all. I don't want to have this locked away any more...I need to remember, and remember what I learned and how I got here, the good bad and ugly. I want to continue to learn about who my dad is. He had a disease. I know and recognize that. He doesn't even remember half of it, if not more, but with having that disease, I didn't have the real Rick...the real daddy.
Along with the notebook I found a journal, mostly with alot of poetry, or just word vomit if you will. Sometimes just writing what ever I write with out thinking about it it therapeudic for me...this journal was alot of that. I came across a poem I wrote at 17 years old. I have never let anyone see this...I can remember this night, and picking this journal up and writing it just after something had happened. I actually really let myself READ it today. I mean really feel it. Every word a memory. I'm letting it go by sharing it.
By sharing it, I acknowledge that it happened...no longer locked away.... My mom reads my blog...I know she's going to cry......
I couldn't give you a post with that title and NOT throw this vid in.... *wink wink nudge nudge say no more* Monty Python's "And Now for something Completely Different" is hilarious, For those of you who like Monty Python and knew exactly what my title meant when you read it, you get a prize. What's the surprise you ask??? uh.....well let me get back to you on that!
Monday's are usually for "My favorite things" and this is just that only a little bit different... I'm finding it difficult to keep up with My favorite things....I mean in theory it's easy...but after a few times doing it, the way I do it, with pics/vids/sound bytes what have you, its getting to be time consuming... and I woke up late this morning...long story short I'm not doing a full blown My Favorite things, but a modified one...and for those of you who linked up last week ( I think there were only two, Thanks Jimmy, and FP mamma) or for those who where thinking about it, I may or may not cut the lists down to 5....I don't know.... we all know decisions are tough for me.
One of my favorite things to do with Trevor is take him to where my mom works....yup, sounds strange, but my mommy works at Armstrong garden Center, that's right....I, the bonified "plant killer" have a mother with a green thumb.... I can remember growing up in Middle school and all through highschool, with a garden in out front yard that people would literally stop and take pictures of....our front yard looked like the Botanical gardens at 33965....yet I cannot keep a plant alive for the life of me....and being that my mom works at a nursey, plants are a fairly normal gift or surprise....always with the disclaimer "Ok, you won't need to water this plant for at least a week, lets see if you can keep this one alive" I even kill cacti. I digress. I take trevor there not only to see his Grams, but to run around...its out doors, theres TONS of beautiful plants for him to look at, water fountains etc. He loves it. And so do I. The last time I was there, spring had totally sprung. There were, happy, perky, beautiful and very colorful flowers EVERYWHERE. I LOVE them. I guess my green thumb mama rubbed off her appreciation for the beauty of plants/flowers on me.
Ahhhh....they make me smile! And hopefully they did the same for you! I love making people smile...it's like my job or something. If i can make someone smile by putting on a mokey suit and dancing the Macerena with a cowboy hat I'll do it if thats what it takes! Don't get any ideas! I will only take drastic measures if neccessary. Making people smile is another one of my favorite things. I like to turn people's frowns UPSIDE DOWN! I guess I know how much I appreciate someone making me smile when I need it the most. Or when I'm just having a disgusting day, and a gesture or a few kind words from someone just totally turns it around... I love that. Or even better, laughing with a total stranger. Its great to find someone you don't even know who just randomly has the same sense of humor as you. Or turning something that makes you just smile into an all out, balls to the wall giggle attack... the kind that make you pee your pants.....yes, I pee my pants if I laugh too hard, what of it? I try to do little things for people to put a smile on their face... sometimes it's a big cheesy smile from myself....or if I'm at work I do this:
Just TRY to tell me that you would NOT smile if you saw that on the top of your smoothie!
So tell me....did YOU smile reading this? Please don't make me take drastic measures, just SMILE already!! :)
I thought maybe I would do a double feature today, just cause I'm cool like that...or at least that's what my mama tells me! Do you get the memo that it was Sunday Funday?? We went to church, headed to the harbor for a little walk, and then to Wahoo's for lunch...I have an obsession with Wahoo's in case you don't remember. Now for a few pictures and then on to getting to know you!
Getting to church
The kissyface was a popular pose today.
Can you tell the sun was in my eyes?
Don't mind me....just layin.
Reading me a magazine
Yeah, that's right....I'm excited to eat Wahoo's!
Omnomnomnom
The decor at Wahoo's...random stickers, surf and skate.
Only a little...you know "see a penny pick it up", knock on wood, throwing salt over the should when you spill etc
2. If you were an animal..what kind would you be? "Dear god, make me a bird, so I can fly.."
3. You would never catch me wearing.........? Hoochie skirts, tapered jeans, a bathing suit?
4. If someone posts a VLOG..do you watch it? Hells yeah!
5. Have you ever waxed your girlie/manly parts..or any other part of your body? I have not...although I've heard it's much easier...I just don't know how I feel about a stranger down in my no no special spot
6. Are you a spender or a saver? Sa-ver??? What's this "saver" you speak of??
7. If you were starring in a movie..who would you want to play your leading man/woman? Easy. Gerard Butler or Jeffery Dean Morgan.
8. Smoker..never smoked..social smoker..or smoked back in the day? Unfortunately I fall into 3 of these categories
Real quick...all the things/people I'm praying for today
-The people in Tennessee and the surrounding states getting pounded by rain -All those less fortunate than I -The orphans or homeless children all over the world -My father -YOU!!! :)
That's all for today folks, I can't believe it's May 2nd already...time is flying, my mom always told me to enjoy life because it goes too fast...I think mine is set on warp speed! I hope you all are having a wonderful first couple days of May!
Chances are that if you're reading this you already know me, but for shits and giggles let me say, I am a 27 year old working mom of an adorable, precocious, and rambunctious little boy Trevor. Life gets crazy and always has its ups and downs, but I'm here for 2 reasons, to reach a higher level of greatness and to raise my little boy the best I can.
I'm always laughing at the most random of things, most of which not too many people find funny as well. Life is too short not to laugh and be silly. I'm sorta weird, kinda normal, I like routine but I can be spontaneous. I love to laugh but sometimes a good cry is due. I'm lazy but I beat myself up for not being productive. I am over worked and underpaid, and I love life but some times I hate to live it...these are the musings of one mad single mama...
